no contact order

by M Nv

my entire torso, all its nerve endings, tingle nervously as I wait.

What will the answer be? what will she say?

Does she even know that I asked a question?

I’m scared of the response. Or, am I scared that I will not get any response at all?

I wanted us to share our lives together. I wanted to be the one she came to, the one

she dreamt of hugging, the one she made love to.

I could get arrested, I should take back my question.

No, wait, but why…